Tuesday, April 20, 2010


As I wrote the post just prior to this one - I realized . . .

I am 8 weeks 2 days, which is what I was when I had the ultrasound in 2007 that showed our July Baby had no heartbeat.  It was also a Tuesday. 

I haven't seen my doctor yet, but feel completely optimistic about this pregnancy, as I sit here dizzy, nauseous, and feeling like the living dead (in a good way).  No terrible cramping, no bleeding.  This is in stark contrast to my last pregnancy where I was so paralyzed by fear and loss that I couldn't enjoy the pregnancy and couldn't bond with my little girl.  I'm glad I've had a chance for a "do over".



Much has happened since my last post and I probably should have blogged about it. ;-) I got my first BFP (Big Fat Positive) on Wednesday, March 17 – St. Patrick’s Day! My AF (Aunt Flow) wasn’t due until somewhere between the 21st and 24th, so I spent the next week obsessing about a possible chemical pregnancy and took a grand total of 11 pregnancy tests to see if the “line” got darker. It did, I officially missed my period, and thus my fifth pregnancy began.

I am now about 8 weeks 2 days pregnant and started coping with morning sickness about two weeks ago. I’ll be the first to admit that my memory is not great at all, but I believe I was much more sick with the girls than I am with this pregnancy, so I’m wondering if this means we’ll be blessed with a boy. With Brendyn – 15 years ago – I didn’t have morning sickness too bad. Other than the queasiness, food aversions, and extreme exhaustion, things appear to be going well. I have had no spotting and only the typical pregnancy abdominal discomfort.

I am really relaxed about this pregnancy and ready to enjoy it, as it is certainly my LAST.  The next seven months will be such a brief moment in time – I will cherish every moment. Ok, most moments.  I have gained weight during the time we were trying to conceive Baby Mic, so sadly I’m growing out of my “pre-pregnancy” clothes. I’m not legally, ethically, or morally ready for maternity clothes, but have already submitted to several pair of pants, just because they’re way more comfortable and I’m above pride at this point.

My first appointment with Dr. Hulsen, who delivered El and Jule, is on April 29. I will establish with him, go ahead and get the NT Scan and probably the mid-pregnancy anatomy scan (at 20 weeks) while I seek out a practitioner and facility who will cater more to my desires for the birth I want.

I look forward to blogging my way through this journey and sharing the highs and lows that come with becoming a Mommy to four. XODAWN